There is a song by Rend Collective that says “the joy of the Lord is my strength”. This song is kind of my life mantra.
Have you every looked around at your circumstance? Looked at your possessions, your family, your lifestyle and said to yourself I should be more happy? If you haven’t you can stop reading here because you won’t relate to what I am about to write. But if you have I want you to know YOU ARE NOT ALONE!
My life is great. My marriage is very strong and very fun and we love and like each other very much! My kiddos are doing so well with school, their activities, and they are awesome to be around. My circumstances are amazing. I am a stay at home mom, married to a man that loves the Lord and works so hard for our family, I have 2 great kiddos (a boy and a girl so I never will say I didn’t get to experience one or the other), my house is brand new and I have nothing to be embarrassed about, I run a super fun business with my best friend that people seem to really like, my church family and support system are always there for prayer when I need it or words of encouragement. Why am I not happier? I should be walking on cloud 9 every day right?
A lot of the time I am happy. But a lot of the time I struggle with depression, sadness, social anxiety and discontentment. Who me? Yep. Me.
Satan is very sneaky. He knows my weaknesses and he exploits them. His jabs at me can come from a comment a friend has made. An action my husband did or didn’t do. Running into someone I wasn’t prepared to see and on and on. He wants me to feel less than I am. He wants me to question whether or not God loves me. He wants me to question why I struggle and to compare my life to an imaginary one. He wants me to squirm with being self conscious and negative self talk. Every day is a battle for truth.
But “I need joy. And when I keep my eyes on Jesus, I have joy, When I lose it, I will choose it. I choose joy.” This is the KSBJ Joy Pledge. Have you heard of it? It’s a great reminder.
So tomorrow I’m going to wake up, drink my coffee, and I will choose joy!